I do and it's destroying my family.
I've tried to see where he's coming from.
I know little about what it's like to have an addiction.
But, he's not trying to get help. He won't.
He's pushing everyone away.
He's gotten so many chances, so many.
I can't seem to forgive him now.
Not right now anyway.
€500 in a day.
It's not his worst but he's told us so many lies.
I can't take it. Him snooping around my room when I'm out.
Stealing money I had saved for my newphew and a trip.
And he lies straight to our faces about it when we know it's him.
What can be done?
Monday, May 24, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Tv show/movies as an obsession?
I've recently been watching a tv show lately.
The show is The L Word.
I have seen the first second and third series already, then I began to watch the fourth and fifth series because I had gotten it on dvd.
The thing was.. I kinda got a little obsessed with watching it and wanting to watch it the whole way through. It felt like a need. A need to watch every episode til I was done with it. It made me kinda ignore my girlfriend a bit.. And I hated the feeling that I was doing that. I wasn't texting her as much.
With watching it so much, I got wrapped up in the lives of the characters. I know it's just a tv show and that it's not actually real. That the characters aren't real. They are actors and they aren't in love with one another, but I kept comparing it to my own life. My own relationship. Which is just.. Kinda stupid when I think about it because it's not real. It's tv. It may be real to some people, but my life is nothing like that.
I want to live my own life and not be comparing it to a tv show. I want to be in a relationship with the person I love and not compare it to the relationships or fictional characters. I need to stop getting so involved in tv/movies in that way. Comparing them with my life. With how I'd like things to be. Because life is not meant to be that way. We are all meant to live our own lives and not have this .. To not compare your own life with anyone elses. Fictional or otherwise. It is us that control our relationships.
Hmm.. Tv.. movies.. They are enjoyable and should not affect someones feelings, emotions. I have to try to find a way to seperate the two.
The show is The L Word.
I have seen the first second and third series already, then I began to watch the fourth and fifth series because I had gotten it on dvd.
The thing was.. I kinda got a little obsessed with watching it and wanting to watch it the whole way through. It felt like a need. A need to watch every episode til I was done with it. It made me kinda ignore my girlfriend a bit.. And I hated the feeling that I was doing that. I wasn't texting her as much.
With watching it so much, I got wrapped up in the lives of the characters. I know it's just a tv show and that it's not actually real. That the characters aren't real. They are actors and they aren't in love with one another, but I kept comparing it to my own life. My own relationship. Which is just.. Kinda stupid when I think about it because it's not real. It's tv. It may be real to some people, but my life is nothing like that.
I want to live my own life and not be comparing it to a tv show. I want to be in a relationship with the person I love and not compare it to the relationships or fictional characters. I need to stop getting so involved in tv/movies in that way. Comparing them with my life. With how I'd like things to be. Because life is not meant to be that way. We are all meant to live our own lives and not have this .. To not compare your own life with anyone elses. Fictional or otherwise. It is us that control our relationships.
Hmm.. Tv.. movies.. They are enjoyable and should not affect someones feelings, emotions. I have to try to find a way to seperate the two.
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