Bad Thoughts

Ever wish you were someone else, somewhere else..?
That things could be different..
Because life just.. isn't going like it should.
I think about it alot.. too much for my liking.
I used always wish that my birthmother wouldn't have given me up for adoption.
So I wouldn't be here now. I would be with her.
My whole life might be different then.
My thoughts these days are dark. Not nice at all.
I've had a rough time the past few months.
But it's getting worse.
And I can't seem to shake them.
Where is my way out?